When Is Enough Going to Be Enough?

   Sometimes we get so blinded by what we would like to happen that we pay no attention to what is actually taking place. Well, it's time I open my baby blues and accept that nothing is going to change no matter how understanding or how forgiving I may be. Maybe, that's why things seem to always end up at the beginning and never makes it to that light at the end of the tunnel. Damn that light. It's nothing but a blinding distraction! Not to mention it's unreachable. When we love someone, we let our hearts lead us. And, our hearts tend to get us onto a path that may not be good. And, that's where I've found myself. No matter what I say or do...until he sees things from a new perspective, it will remain. And, that's not where I need to be. So, now I fear, the end of this chapter has come. Even though the thought of a new chapter with my knight in shining armor would be the ideal thing for me...it's turning out to not be a realistic thing. In other words...I think I was defeated in this before I even began it. And, that's sad. But, now I'm faced with the truth of reality. What's next? I have no clue. But, I know that I will no longer look for a knight or a light...